Light vs. Darkness - The Daily Battle

As the season approached in May, it seemed as if I was destined for a great year. I had put together a season that won me a ‘Player of the Year’ award. I put in 18 months of hard work and preparation. I was confident in the work I had done in Spring Training. I was ready to roll to the point I felt I was on my way to Major League Baseball.

Then the season began, and one week of woes turned to two weeks.

Two weeks turned to a month.

Darkness began to approach in the form of a question.

“Why do I suck so bad?”

One month then became two, and during that time I grew absolutely paralyzed by a darkness in a level of self doubt that I’d never experienced.

“Am I good enough? Do I even belong here anymore? What happened to me?”

I knew better than to talk to myself like this, but I couldn’t seem to shake the questions. I couldn’t shake the dark thoughts.

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Heck, you’re probably questioning why I’m writing this in the first place. The answer to that lies in how these last six months have shaped me.

Your JOB is to perform as a professional athlete, and to perform, you have to put in countless hours of preparation of weightlifting, speed and agility, hitting, and throwing during the off season.

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